I grew up in a pretty traditional Christian household. I believed in God, went to church, and prayed; but all that changed when my faith finally got tested. Everyone has their faith in God tested at least once in their life, and this was the case for me on October 11th of 2014 when I found out my dad was diagnosed with cancer.
I watched as cancer destroyed my dad, and every day I would pray and even beg to God to heal my dad, to not take him away. On October 18th, 2014, one week after finding out he had cancer, I watched my dad die at home. The moment my dad died, my faith in God was shaken, and slowly I started to walk away from God and into a life of sin. I became an addict and fell into a deep depression. I isolated myself and put up walls around my heart to prevent people from coming in. As time went on, I no longer wanted to live with the pain and considered ending my life, and between the years of 2017-2019 I attempted to take my life 10 times.
I knew I needed help but I didn’t know how to ask for it, so I finally turned back to God and prayed for help. I prayed for Him to send me someone to help pull me back as I was unable to do it myself, and a week later I met a truly amazing young woman who introduced me to His House. Through them, I rediscovered my faith and started my journey back to God. It wasn’t until the 2019 Winter Retreat that I made the decision to reaffirm my faith in God, as well as finally open up to my friends about my battle with depression.
I learned through His House that even though I turned my back to God, He never turned his back on me, but rather was laying the foundation for me to return to Him.